It's hard to leave people/things behind but unload your baggage. Paul had to examine himself , he wasn't perfect & needed God every step of the way.
Ask the Lord to walk w/you & still follow him even though you're not where you want to be.
Let the Lord order your steps. SIN -no matter how you turn it around the "I" is still in the middle.
"I got to still SEE it for myself." this means despite you or your situation keep moving forward & forget what happened yesterday. Look ahead to the future.
PRESS TOWARD THE MARK- there's a prize of higher calling