It's ok to cry. Ask the Lord to lighten your eyes-you are asking for spiritual revival. You need clarity because you are in a dark place.
Spend time w/ God. Seek deliverance; ask the Lord to come see about you.
Trust in God's unfailing love. David prayed that the problem changed it didn't. So he changed his perspective & his choice was to rejoice because he hath dealt bountifully with him.